Grim InsecuritiesSlowly the depression is fought from my bodyGradually I begin to feel lighter, stronger, happierThe depression finally disappearsBut something remainsSomething persistsClinging to my happinessTrying to squeeze it awayThis feeling of insecurity remains behindLapsing back to depressionElation fighting to stayAt every chance insecurities bite at its handsTrying everything to make me lose my joyThat same happiness that keeps me saneBut every day that elation strengthens its gripSlowly those insecurities leave meThat nagging creature goes the way of depression and despair
Dark Demons and DespairMy own dark demonsGrasping at my feetAlways dragging me downInto this deep despairI've come to know all too wellThat suffocating dark mistAlways returning to smother meIt fills my heart with painAnd my eyes with tearsIt's all so familiarThis hopelessness I feelThis same depressionConsuming me again and againThose dark demonsRefusing to let goRefusing to loosen their gripNever leaving me aloneThey will always be thereTill the day I die
Surrender to the lightLiberateFree meFrom this painThat has become meDepression no longer definingThe person that I amLooking at the world in a new wayNo longer seeing darkness and hatredNow seeing light and loveWounds healScars fadeThe past is lostRetreating from the darkness From which it was bornSurrendering to the coming light
Times GoneThe steam rushes from your mouthWith the softest of a hissI can't believe I'm hereHeld by an angelMy shivers fall awayAs you take my hand into yoursSo new to me…These emotions filling meSnow everywhereEverything is so sereneAs I sit obliviousStaring into your eyesA soft wind kisses our cheeksA lock of hair falls into your faceI reach out with shaking hand to push it awayYou look up at me and smileYour smile could melt icebergsYour eyes deeper then the deepest of oceansYour skin softer than the petal of a roseYour beauty more than can be dreamed
Deferred RegretsFlying freeRemoved from this worldNo longer seeing what I once sawI see the pain, I see the deathIt's all so senselessBut then I see what matterI see the lovethe hugsthe kissesI see all the things I lostWhen I pulled that triggerIf I could take it back I wouldBut It's too late for that nowI've already made the mistakeNow I'll never know how it feelsI did what felt rightNow I realize it was dumbBut it's too late for that nowIf only I'd seen what I'd be missingBefore I'd done something so selfishIf only I'd been more lovedIf only I hadn't been ridiculedI guess it's too late now...
A+ job!